The prophet Elijah scores a stunning victory in his competition with Queen Jezebel for the religious allegiance of the Israelites. And then he falls into a deep depression in this week’s haftarah reading, 1 Kings 18:46-19:21.
The contest
Elijah and Queen Jezebel are both zealots for their gods.1 When Jezebel of Sidon marries Ahab, king of the northern kingdom of Israel, she brings 450 prophets of Ba-al and 400 prophets of Asherah with her to her new home. Ahab builds a temple for Ba-al and a post for Asherah in his capital, Samaria.
Then Ahab continued to act to provoke Y-H-V-H, the God of Israel, more than all the kings of Israel who were before him. (1 Kings 16:13)
Elijah declares a drought in the northern kingdom of Israel, and God cooperates by withholding rain.2 After three years of drought and famine, Elijah appears before Ahab and orders the king to set up a contest.
He tells King Ahab to assemble “all Israel” and the 450 prophets of Ba-al on top of Mount Carmel3, where there are two altars: one for Ba-al, and a ruined altar for Y-H-V-H. The king obeys, because he knows only Elijah can end the drought.
When everyone has assembled on top of Mount Carmel, Elijah calls out:
“How long will you hop between two opinions? If Y-H-V-H is God, follow him! And if it’s Ba-al, follow him!” (1 Kings 18:21)
Nobody answers. So Elijah announces the terms of the contest. Each altar will be stacked with firewood, and a bull will be cut up and laid out on top. Then the prophets will ask their gods to send fire to ignite the offering—450 prophets of Ba-al at one altar, and Elijah alone at the other.
The Israelites agree that whichever god sends down fire will be their god. So Jezebel’s 450 prophets spend all morning and most of the afternoon calling on Ba-al, dancing, and gashing themselves, but nothing happens. Then Elijah mends the ruined altar of Y-H-V-H, stacks the firewood and the slaughtered bull, and has water poured over the whole thing. He calls to God once, and fire falls down from the sky. The fire devours the cut-up bull, the wood, the stones, the dirt, and the water.
All the people prostrate themselves, and shout:
“Y-H-V-H is God! Y-H-V-H is God!” (1 Kings 18:39)
Victory? Not enough for Elijah. He tells the Israelites:
“You must seize the prophets of the Ba-al! Not one must escape you!” (1 Kings 18:40)
They do. Elijah takes all 450 of them down to the nearest gully and slaughters them like sacrificial animals. Then he announces to King Ahab that it is about to rain at last.
The flight
This week’s haftarah opens with Elijah’s triumphal run through the rain in front of the king’s chariot, all the way from Mount Carmel to the king’s house in the Yizreil Valley, about 18 miles (29 km). There King Ahab tells Queen Jezebel what happened at Mount Carmel. She sends Elijah a message saying that she will have him killed the next day.
And he saw, and he rose, and he went for [the sake of] his nefesh. And he came to Beersheba that belongs to Judah, and he left his young man there. (1 Kings 19:3)
nefesh (נֶפֶשׁ) = soul that animates the body, life force; throat, appetite, desire.
In another time and place, a man in Elijah’s position might start a revolution against the king and queen instead of fleeing. But popular revolutions were rare in the Ancient Near East. The only one recorded in the Hebrew Bible is led by Jereboam against King Reheboam, Solomon’s son and heir. When the northern Israelites secede from Reheboam’s kingdom, they proclaim Jereboam king of their new nation.4
But biblical prophets only try to motivate people, from kings to commoners, to stop worshiping other gods, to follow God’s rules (especially the ethical ones), to refrain from certain wars, and (after the Babylonian Exile) to return to Jerusalem.
Elijah succeeds in inducing the Israelites to choose God over Ba-al. But King Ahab does whatever his wife says, and Jezebel is furious at the death of the prophets she supported. Neither converts to worshiping Y-H-V-H. So Elijah concludes that he has failed.
He travels about 200 miles (320 km) south, to the southern edge of the kingdom of Judah. He does not stop at Jerusalem to ask for asylum from King Jehosephat, who worships Y-H-V-H. Maybe he is afraid of extradition, or of a paid assassin sneaking into Jehosephat’s palace.
Or maybe he imagines spending the rest of his life as a useless courtier, instead of as a powerful prophet fighting for Y-H-V-H, and he decides a life like that is not worthwhile.
He stops at the last town before the Negev Desert, where he thoughtfully leaves his only servant. He does not want the young man to die in the desert.
Elijah, however, is ready to die. At least he will die on his own terms, not Jezebel’s.
And he walked into the wilderness, a day’s journey, and he came and sat down under a lone broom bush, and he asked for his nefesh to die. And he said: “Too much! Now, Y-H-V-H, take my nefesh, since I am no better than my forefathers!” [1 Kings 19:4]
What does he mean by the reference to his forefathers? One interpretation is that “up until this point, he has harbored an ambition that with his unique methodology, he could surpass his ancestors … Where his ancestors failed, Eliyahu HaNavi [“the prophet”] thought his innovative and more aggressive approach would succeed.” (Jachter)5
He asks for death when he concludes that he, too, has failed to turn the Israelites away from worshiping other gods.
Answer to a prayer
Two other prophets in the Hebrew Bible, Moses and Jonah, beg God for death.
Moses is fed up when he has brought the Israelites within a day’s march of the border of Canaan, and they sit and wail that they miss the food in Egypt. He never wanted the job of leading them in the first place. He tells God:
“Where am I to get meat to give to all this people, when they cry on me saying: ‘Give us meat, so we may eat it!’ I am not able to carry all this people alone by myself, because they are too heavy for me! If this is what you do to me, definitely kill me, please!” (Numbers 11:13-15)
To me this seems like a cry of desperation, not an actual desire for death. And God does not kill Moses, but rather sends so many quail that many Israelites die when “the meat was still between their teeth” (Numbers 11:33).
Jonah, like Moses, does not want the job God assigns him. He is supposed to go to Nineveh, the capital of Israel’s enemy, and proclaim that in 40 days the city will be overthrown. But he is afraid that the Ninevites might actually repent, and then God will have mercy on them. Jonah tries to run away from God, to no avail. After he finally does his job, all the Ninevites do repent, even the king. And Jonah feels frustrated, because he wants the Ninevites to die.
And to Jonah this was very bad, and he burned with anger. And he prayed to Y-H-V-H, and said: “… And now, Y-H-V-H. please take my nefesh from me, because it would be better if I die than if I live!” (Jonah 4:1–3)
To me this seems more like an ill-considered expression of anger than an actual death-wish. And God does not kill Jonah, but instead gives him an object lesson on compassion.
Is Elijah cracking under stress, like Moses? Or angry, like Jonah? Perhaps, but I think he is also seriously depressed and really does want to die. He does not merely ask God to kill him, but walks into the desert all day, then sits down in a place with shade, but no water. He has made sure that if God does not take his life immediately, he will die of dehydration.
And God does not kill Elijah, either.
And he lay down and slept under a lone broom bush. And hey, this malakh was poking him! And it said to him: “Get up! Eat!”
malakh (מַלְאָךְ) = messenger, human or divine. A messenger from God might appear human, but is not; in that case it is often translated as “angel”.
And he looked, and by his head was a cake baked on hot stones, and a jug of water. And he ate and he drank, and he went back and he lay down. (1 Kings 19:6)
Elijah merely obeys the angel, without pausing to think about what the divine rescue might mean. He does not want to do anything, ever again.
And the malakh of Y-H-V-H returned a second time and poked him, and it said: “Get up! Eat! Or the journey will be too much for you.” (1 Kings 19:7)
Since God will not leave him alone to die, Elijah eats and drinks again, then continues walking south, all the way to Mount Sinai. There God tells him he will go on living, but he must anoint Elisha, who will replace him as the kingdom of Israel’s chief prophet.6
I can empathize with Moses when he bursts out “If this is what you do to me, definitely kill me, please!” because I, too, feel frustrated when something I didn’t really want to do in the first place is not going well due to the behavior of the other people involved. But what I really want is to get out of that particular responsibility and enjoy life.
I also feel mildly depressed now and then, but I am grateful that I have never felt so depressed I wanted to die. Poor Elijah could not imagine life without his mission: to convert the whole kingdom of Israel to the worship of Y-H-V-H. My own mission is smaller: I just want to write about Torah.
- See my post Pesach: Who Is Elijah?
- 1 Kings 17:1.
- Mount Carmel is one of the hills just east of present-day Haifa.
- 1 Kings 12:1-20.
- Chaim Jachter, From David to Destruction, 2019, reprinted in www.sefaria.org.
- See my posts Haftarat Pinchas—1 Kings: The Sound of God and Haftarat Pinchas—1 Kings: Passing On the Mantle.


























